Self Image from a Fetish Site

When I finally left my husband, I had a very low self esteem. Partly due to years of him beating me down about my looks. Making me feel that parts of my body were to be hidden and ashamed of, instead of celebrated.

Luckily, I had a wonderful friend, Nick who knew about my self esteem issues and took a huge change and said to me one day, "You know, you need to set up a profile on this fetish site I am on".  Now, this was a risk because we live in the Midwest, you know the land of cornfields and little white churches, so he risked me really freaking out when he mentioned a fetish site, but I didn't. I asked him why, so more people can tell me how ugly I am.  At this point he told me that there are a lot of people who adore certain qualities that I have that my ex husband had hated.

I'm not holding back or pulling punches, lets throw it out there as it is, I have extremely large boobs. So Nick basically dared me to set up a profile, he even told me I just had to put a basic picture, no face, even with a shirt on, on the site and I would have all kinds of people liking it.  Me on the other hand thought he was crazy, so I agreed to do it, just to prove him wrong!!  Problem was he was right!

So many people sent me messages telling me how beautiful I was, how they loved the way I looked, and on and one. I was so surprised.  But the wildest thing was that it was exactly what I needed at that point in my life. I needed a boost in my self esteem, my self confidence. This gave me that and allowed me to feel that I could stand on my own.

That fetish site became the basis for a number of experience I had over the next year or so, and that is a lot of what you will read here at Wild Oats.  It also introduced me to some people that have become some wonderful, life long friends that I can't imagine my life without now.  I also was given access to a number of stories of experiences, feelings, and motivations that I am excited to share with you here on Wild Oats.

I'm not sure what I want the purpose of Wild Oats to be, but I know that there will be someting good come of it.